A DREAM OF LOVE
After a tiresome day, when the darkness swept to give some
rest to the body, I happily clinged to my blanket to shut the day. Soon I saw
myself sitting on a rock, seeing the calm waves splashing the water, like
singing an ode to the dawn.
My hair swept past my face, as if trying to wipe the worry
out of my life. To end the muse I was in, someone whispered, “Hello! Hmm… may I
sit next to you?”
“Here?”
He nodded.
“hmmm … actually I …”
“never mind … I will sit on the other rock… was lonely… so
huh..just wanted to talk to someone”
“I don’t know you..Ok no problem…hmmm …please sit”
“Thank you. I wouldn't introduce myself would love to keep
that way… but want to have a heart felt conversation.. if you don’t mind”
“ok!!!”
“What is the thing that you dread the most”
“Loosing loved ones… or leaving loved ones forever”
“Death?”
“Yes”
“WOW! That means you have a lot of people who love you ..
and you love them back unconditionally too”
I glittered with smile “Yes”… and then “Maybe…. Hmmmm… Maybe
not”.
“So your not sure?”
“….they need me”
“So its just a need not love. What happens when the need
ends?”
“It may turn to respect because I was around when they need”
“Need , respect… ok… so where is love?”
“Who are you?”
“The one you never let to question. The one you dreaded if I
walk in you will stop doing what your doing. The one who is within you and
tries to protect YOU. I AM WHO YOU ARE AND I AM WHO YOU DON’T WAN TO BE”
And I suddenly see this man is a girl. And then I take a closer look and she looks exactly like
me. I jerk back with fear. She smiles and held my arm so that I don’t fall of
the rock, which is actually a big cliff now. The waves start roaring, the sky
gets darker, suddenly the dawn is dusk. I cry “Let me go..Leave me alone”
She replies calmly “Don’t fight me … I am you.”
“I just want to go”
“Stop running. Stop escaping. Why don’t you realise THE ONE
WHO NEEDS YOU THE MOST IS YOU. Love yourself. Only because there is no one else
doing that”
“Isn't that being selfish”
She laughs, “Its BEING KIND to yourself”
Tear runs down my cheek, she wipes it like a soft wind. I
close my eyes with the most peaceful melody ringing my ear, just to be woken up
by dawn again still clinging to the rock and waves still being too soft to my
feet. So it wasn't a dream.. She was here… where is she now… was that a demon..
or an angel.. was that me … was that…
I walk back home, the sand seemed to swallow me. In minutes
I was covered by it. I wanted this dream to end. All this magical is a dream… I have to just
open my eyes and all will be normal. The blanket of sand whispered it back to
me “I have to just open my eyes and all will be normal”.
I cried again, sand uncurled itself set me back on my feet …
only to place me high on a mountain, I slipped a feet but it felt like a
blanket. I sat up with a jerk, to find myself back in my room , blanket covered
till my knee.
I cried for the third time that night, because for the first
time I realised I forgot to love me.
Took my cellphone to check the time, it read,
“3:00
Sunday, February 14”
I smiled. Looked at the mirror in the front and said “Happy
Valentines Day MY LOVE”.
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